It’s February now.. How exactly is this possible? As I’m getting older, I have more and more to stress about and less and less free time. The clock just seems to tick quicker. The days seem to only last a few hours instead of 24 hours. Everything is just so quick. I’m already 29. How did that happen? This year will mark 10 years since my dad passed. HOW? Someone make this stop. Someone tell me it starts to slow down after a while. Someone tell me it will get easier and I will get happier. Right?
Sometimes I feel as though I am completely taking my time for granted. Shouldn’t I be traveling more? Shouldn’t I be having more kids? Shouldn’t I be volunteering everyday in my kids’ classes? Shouldn’t I be cooking and cleaning and strive to be the most perfect mom out there? Shouldn’t I just be doing, more.
In the past 4 months or so, my life has changed a lot. I started working outside the home part-time and started taking realty courses online. I finished the courses, got my certificates, and am now preparing for the state exam. I will go from being a stay-at-home mom for 8 years, to working 2 part time jobs and will hopefully go to one full time job.
One thing I am still learning is that I am not perfect. Nor will I ever be perfect. And God still loves me. My kids still love me. My husband still loves me. Life feels like a jumbled up mess sometimes. Like right now. I feel like I’m being pulled in a million places at once and cannot do it all. And going from SAHM to that is quite a change for me.
But, I’m optimistic. I’m excited. Sure, life gets stressful and things get cray-cray. But everyone’s life is a mess. Not just yours! There are plenty of people in their late 20’s still figuring their crap out. Maybe I put too much pressure on myself? But then again, if I don’t, who will? I think we should all push ourselves out of our comfort zones. We only have this ONE life. That’s it. That is so easy to forget. Once you’re gone, you’re gone. What will you leave behind? What will your kids remember about you? What will your friends remember?
Life is never what you expect it to be. Let it pull you in different directions and change courses. Enjoy the ride. You won’t get another chance. This is it. Make the most of it. Push yourself. Do things out of your comfort zone. Honestly, what’s the worst that could happen? You might enjoy it.