My Public School vs. Homeschool Moments of Doubt

I had an unusual homeschool experience. And there have been a few times when I’ve questioned sending my kids to public school. I was in fact raised in a Christian, pro-homeschool household. My parents were against public schools, even though both of them were raised k-12 in public schools. Their experiences altered how they educated us. And I feel like that is my exact way of thinking as well.

I talk to other Christian Mom’s about homeschool and about how great they think it is for their kids and how amazing it has been for them…. And I’m happy for them. Honestly, I just want to ask them, “Sooo, do your kids enjoy homeschool? Have they ever wanted to go to public school?” Not that I am implying that children are the bosses and make the decisions. Absolutely not. No, my brain immediately goes there because that’s exactly how I felt growing up, my entire childhood. I begged my parents to let me go to school. I wanted friends. I wanted stability. I wanted interaction with someone. ANYONE.

Of course I never actually said that to any of these other Christian women. I just say, “Oh wow. That’s great!” I almost feel sorry for these kids. ONLY because of how I grew up. Please don’t get mad at me for saying that. My experience was a “learn on your own” type of schooling. And I know that nowadays for homeschoolers it is NOT like that, at least I hope it’s not. And that has also made me doubt whether or not what I am doing is “best” for my kids. I sometimes feel guilty. As if I am not doing what God is clearly telling other families is the correct, Christian thing to do. If every other Christian mom is homeschooling and I’m not, am I sinning by letting them go to public school?

First Day of School Photo Opp Public School Just One Mommy's Opinion

Sometimes I feel like the homeschooling tribes out there are just so one sided. And anyone not homeschooling is making a huge mistake. At least I’ve gotten that from a few women I’ve met. Not ALL. But I have to tell you, no amount of judgmental looks will make me think that I’m making a mistake with my kids. I believe what my husband and I are doing is totally and completely good with God. Yep I said it, I think God is OKAY with Christian kids going to public school. Whew. I said it.

Sure I’ve had my moments of doubt, but there’s just something that brings me back every time. Maybe it’s my memories of my homeschool experience, or that even though there can be some “bad” kids at school, I have faith my kids will overcome the negativity because they have God on their side. And doesn’t God clearly say, “Go into all the world and preach the gospel to all creation.” My kids love God and love talking about Him. They have invited kids to church, VBS, and other activities our church has going on. Oh how happy I am knowing what an influence they might be to other kids who may not know God or attend church.

I went into my son’s room, who is 7, and saw that he had his Bible laying open on his bed before he got up and got ready for school. Every morning he reads his Bible. Everyday he starts off by getting courage and guidance from his Father up above. This was such a beautiful thing for me to see. My son reminds me of my Dad, who passed away 9 years ago to cancer. He always had his Bible on him, reading, talking about God, teaching me lessons. He may not have been the best homeschooling teacher, but he sure did teach me plenty about God. Every single day.

Bible Reading Before School _ Just One Mommy's Opinion

I have faith that my kids will be strong in the Lord. I don’t believe homeschooling is something that I MUST do. Every family is different and homeschooling can be amazing and wonderful for some kids. I truly believe that. But for me and my kids, public school rocks. They have amazing extracurricular activities for my kids, they have made some great friends, and I am so happy that they are strong in their faith and love for God. I am happy. My kids are happy.

I think the most important thing we need to be concerning ourselves with is if we are raising our children right and if we are making sure they are being fed spiritually. That right there changes everything. We have to make sure first and foremost our kids know God, love God, and live for God. They are the next generation of leaders in this world and we need to make sure they are prepared to handle what’s coming.

“Proverbs 22:6  Train up a child in the way he should go; even when he is old he will not depart from it.”

Psalm 127:3-5  Behold, children are a heritage from the LORD, the fruit of the womb a reward. Like arrows in the hand of a warrior are the children of one’s youth. Blessed is the man who fills his quiver with them!”

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