Ahhhhh, the beauty of pregnancy….okay ya know what, I’m not gonna lie, pregnancy sucks. It’s full of barfing, sore boobs, backaches, constant peeing, weight gain, and WAY too many more things to name here (at least that’s the way it was for me). But alas, we go through it all and get that “mommy body” because in the end, we get our amazing, beautiful children out of it.
Would I do it all again? In a heart beat! Because it’s completely worth it.
However, after losing all of the baby weight from my third and last child (unless God has other plans), I have been struggling with my body and how it looks now days. Yes, I am back to my pre-pregnancy weight. I actually weigh the same as when the hubby and I were dating. Which is a miracle in and of itself! I am super duper proud of myself for being determined and dedicated to my weight loss. But when I look in the mirror, do I look the same?? NO FREAKING WAY. Not even close. And to be honest, it’s a hard realization to come to terms with.
It’s difficult when you don’t feel comfortable in your own skin. It’s hard when you don’t even want your husband to touch you because you are so self conscious. It’s hard. It’s been a struggle for me. Probably now more than ever because I am at my goal weight, but am not happy. I’m trying to figure out why this is happening.
I know that my husband loves me no matter how saggy my breasts have gotten. I know that he enjoys being intimate with me. And I appreciate and love that so much. It’s not about him. It’s about how every time I look in the mirror, I see this person who has gone through so much and just looks worn out and old. And I don’t feel that way on the inside, and I really don’t want to look that way on the outside.
I’ve been contemplating breast augmentation quite a bit lately. Back and forth I go.. “I TRULY need it. But it is a risk. Is that worth putting my health at risk for my outward appearance? But I just want them to be perky and normal looking again! But is it necessary? Is it worth it? I cannot be the only mom struggling with this, right?”
I have been reading the Bible a lot lately, trying to hear what God says about this.. and here’s what I found..
“But the Lord said to Samuel, “Do not look on his appearance or on the height of his stature, because I have rejected him. For the Lord sees not as man sees: man looks on the outward appearance, but the Lord looks on the heart.” 1 Samuel 16:7
“Do not let your adorning be external—the braiding of hair and the putting on of gold jewelry, or the clothing you wear— but let your adorning be the hidden person of the heart with the imperishable beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which in God’s sight is very precious.” 1 Peter 3:3-4
“Charm is deceitful, and beauty is vain, but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised.”
Not one bit am I saying plastic surgery is wrong by showing you these verses. I am still very much considering it. I am merely saying, God doesn’t want us to focus on our looks too much.
Honestly, you can take these verses and really go crazy. No make-up, no hair color, no tanning, no jewelry, no braids. And come on, that is over reacting a bit I think. When it comes down to it, I believe what God is saying is to just take it down a notch. Don’t draw attention to yourself. That’s not necessary or appreciated. What really matters is what’s in your heart. If you are following God and doing what He has called you to do. THAT is what truly matters.
And when it comes to breast augmentation, for me nothing would change. I would dress exactly the same, well maybe with larger shirts. I would not wear cleavage bearing tops that scream, come and get me boys! No, it would be for me and my husband. So I can look in the mirror and feel normal and pretty. So I can be intimate with my husband and not feel ugly, ashamed, and embarrassed.
But on the flip side, I do know that God is telling me that focusing on my outward appearance is not something I should be doing. It’s not important. Looks do not make a person. We all know this, don’t we?
As of right now, I am trying to learn to love my body that has drastically changed due to having three kids. It’s not an easy process. I know that right now, this is my body and I’ve gotta live with it. I’m healthy, I have the ability to walk, run, play with my kids, and be happy. And I should be thankful for that. Not focusing on the negatives that I see.
What are your thoughts on plastic surgery as a Christian? I’m very curious to hear what YOU think!